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Hey, remember when I said it's probably just flu? Ahhahhah! Well, it was a virus-rejection combo so magnificent that the whole of Finland hadn't experienced anything like it before. The Chronic Henumiomatosis Inflammation as my dear friend Ambie named it. Or ziisasickness. Yeah, it's still there and since it hasn't shown any major signs of leaving while dropping my vital capacity to one litre, I'm getting ready for my third set of lungs. Oh well, no can do. Sure it's annoying, but there's really no choice than to troop on.

And since I now have to drag Hermanni around (a black oxygen thingie) I can't really party like I planned once I'd get out of the hospital. My energy levels are now as low as in 2010 and because of the 10-week-long-sudden-hospital-period, I'm so sorry darlings, I won't get the Hunter Saga ready for this year's Tracon.

Pretzel Philosophy

I believe you can be happy only after you’ve begun to embrace your flaws. Everyone has them, no matter how perfect other people may seem to you. Every now and then they get to you, and you just have to accept them as actual parts of you. And “you” is something you should always treasure, no matter what.

Throughout your life you’ve made impacts on people, and they’ve made impacts on you. Together you’ve shaped the world that surrounds you, and without you things wouldn’t be like they are now. Every time you’ve made someone smile, you’ve affected their lives positively, given them strength to carry on and without you, they would be so much sadder and weaker. The world would be definitely dimmer.

It is also important to find and acknowledge your good points. Remember every praise you’ve ever gotten, every positive description, and if you doubt them, make real effort to believe in them. Repeat them to yourself whenever you’re feeling blue. Repeat them until you believe in them again and realize that those facts really are the one reality that matters. Your reality. If you don’t believe in yourself, it’s no use how many others believe in you. And if you believe in yourself, there’s no need for others to believe in you, since your own opinion of you is the most important one. It’s your world.

Standstill

Nothing to report, really.

The nurses take me daily outside in a wheelchair to see the sun. It's so sweet of them and I enjoy it very much. Also today, since it's Mother's Day, we got chocolate cake. It was really delicious~.

I'm very grateful for the friends who have visited/called/messaged me. Thank you, guise. It means a lot to me and always manages to cheer me up!

Birthday Scenario Game

So this EndMerit dude threw this my way as a challenge. Go check out his blog, he's my classmate and a cool guy.

But seriously, Kirby is so me. All I'm doing at the moment is eating, sleeping, and slaughtering my enemies by puking stars at them. And then eating them.

Good To Know

Still in the hospital. Still unsure of what's really going on. The main suspect at the moment is a virus that has already left the building, but my lungs are still in a bad shape and should be slowly recovering. Slllooooowwwwllly. Also my heart went kinda crazy for a few days. Just taking a dump raised my pulse to 148! Huh... It's better now though, thanks to some beta blocker darlings.

I'm adapting and getting used to being here. The food doesn't bother me that much anymore and also the nurses here are lovely! And I have a room all for myself! It's still pretty boring, but yeah. If anyone of yous random people are around Helsinki, you're most welcome to visit me!

Wait It Out

Today marks full three weeks at the hospital and still no progress.

It's starting to be a little bit boring.

Tampere hospital had way better food than this one in Helsinki where it's mostly served cold and messed up and the breads are all really dry. Helsinki has better beds and prettier rooms, though. I also have a roommate now. She's great but maaaan, she snores! Since yesterday they've been giving some sleeping meds to me so it's alright. Especially since my latest dream involved David Tennant teaching me how to play the saxophone! It was precious.

First Aid

The reason for the lack of posts is my hospitalization. On the 6th day I put my name to a lease and on the same evening this awful fever rose. The next morning I called the doc and she told me to rush to the ER.
My darlin' Karo (at whose place I was staying at the time) waited for the ambulance with me and we were talking about Supernatural and the Winchester family and then the ambulance dudes arrived on the scene and ffffff- the other one looked so much like sweet Dean I couldn't even anything. Also the other nurse was really sparkly too. And they both were really- I mean- I don't- and treated- fangirling- stethoscope- hand holding- sparkles- AFDSg! It was a bliss, the whole trip to hospital was just pure perfection, heeeeeeee~. Ahem. Be cool, Ziisa, be cool...